I Have No Idea What the Heck I'm Doing

Seriously.

Story of my life.

And it 100% applies to this blog.

I felt inspired to start this blog and I know what I want it to be.  I want it to be a space where I can share my real life experiences, the nitty gritty, to help others feel more comfortable with the nitty gritty of their lives.  So I started the blog and then all of it just left my brain.  All of a sudden I had no idea what to write.

Why?

Oh, ya know, simply because I lost all sense of who I was as a person.  No biggie, right?  I still don't really have any idea what happened or what is going on or what the heck I'm doing.  All I know is that I'm starting to come back.

I had hoped that I would be able to share my experiences as they are happening but I have discovered that that is much more of a struggle for me than I realized.  I have a hard time talking about what is going on with me because I have no idea what is going on with me.  Hard to put into words what you don't even know is happening.

But I have come to a place where I feel like I finally have enough of myself back where I hope I can start sharing some of these experiences with you.

For the time being, all you really need to know is that I have absolutely no idea what I am doing, in every part of my life.  I seriously wing it every day just like I'm sure you do,  And I second guess myself like a bazillion times every time I make a choice as I'm sure you do.

I seriously have spent the whole time writing this going back and forth in my head about whether or not this is a completely stupid post and people will think it was a total waste of time.  Jury is STILL out on that one.

Just so you know, I didn't say all of that hoping to find compliments.  I know how crazy I am.  And I'm totally ok with it.

Sometimes I wonder why other people seem so ok with it.  I wonder if that's just an indication that we all are crazy and the people that stick around simply are crazy on a compatible level.

I'll save further musings on that topic for another post because now I'm just rambling.

Welcome to my brain!