A Bucketful of Awesome

So, I'm really bad at setting goals.  I also obnoxiously say "so" a lot.  Anyways, I have never been a goal setter and have always struggled with finding the motivation to achieve any goals I do set.  Why?  I think it all comes down to a fear of failure.  What's the point if I'm not going to be able to do it, right?  WRONG!  Dead wrong!  I know it's wrong but I still have hung back.  I have always been envious of those that have the tenacity to set goals.  I have always wanted to be one of those people but I've always believed my inner voice when it has told me I am not one of those people.  Well, it's time to finally face my fear of failure.  I set a goal!

I have this really awesome journal.  Literally.  I'm pretty sure I've referenced Drops of Awesome here before.  Kathryn Thompson, the author, put together this really awesome journal where you can write down all of your Drops of Awesome.  I felt inspired to buy it and when I did it was the exact thing that I needed.  It helped me to start getting out of a funk I was in.  Well, as so many other things, the spark died pretty quickly and pretty soon I had let a month go by without opening it.  Every time I glanced at it guilt and shame washed over me for letting it go unopened.  Finally, I decided I would kick that shame and my fear of goal setting in the butt together by setting a date to fill up my journal with all my Drops of Awesome.  And what better day than my birthday to make that happen?

So, here I am, telling the whole internet that I will have my Drops of Awesome journal totally filled by November 23rd, my 26th birthday.  When I set the goal last month this is how much I had to go:

 

And this is how far I've gotten since then:

 

I've got just over 2 months left.  It's going to take lot of Drops and I may not actually fill it up all the way but that doesn't matter.  What matters is that I am willing to put myself outside of my comfort zone and push myself to live to my potential.  It's not the physical end result that matters.  This is about the journey and what I discover about myself in the process.  So far?  I've found out that I'm way more awesome than I thought I was, and that fills me with the drive to be the best that I can be.  For myself, for my family, and for my God.  I am transforming into the person I want to be by going on this journey.  THAT is what matters.  So, here's to daring greatly and not being afraid!  Wish me luck!  What goal are you going to set that will conquer fears and stretch you to be better?

In related news, I've also decided to run a 10k, hopefully this fall.  I am totally stoked about it!